Inconsistency ...

Just realised i post once a year on average...I have never been able to systematically register events, or follow any system whatsoever. Is it a fault in my personality or just a fear of being committed. I do not know. I am not scared that someone might read it. The theory of probability states it is almost impossible that someone random can read it out of millions of other diary/ blog posts. So why i can not be more open and analytical with posting...may be it is time to make an attempt:)